Imagine you were in a dark room with no windows or doors, with only a dim, tiny bulb for light. Feeling around, you discover that parts of the wall are solid brick, parts are thin wood paneling, and other parts are made of paper. You break through the paper to find more walls behind. You bloody your knuckles trying to break through some paneling. More walls.
As you continue to try to break through, you learn that a maze surrounds the room where you are stuck. You keep breaking through piece after piece, sometimes getting farther, and sometimes hitting a dead end of solid brick. Finally you reach a point where you can start to see a faint light behind, or through, the walls. You know you’re going the right direction, but can’t tell how much farther you have to go.
That’s where Kelly and I are right now. We’re not scared or struggling, but we are seeking. We know we’ve finally found the exit route. We can see the glow and some things are becoming brighter and clearer. We’re hearing God say, “Walk this way.” But we aren’t there yet. There are more obstacles ahead of us before we can fully understand His plan for us.
But we know He has a plan.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.”
Maybe it wasn’t hard for you to imagine this because you’ve felt the same way. Maybe you feel this way right now. God’s calling you to something, and maybe you have seen glimpses of His plan, but not a complete plan. You are still mostly in the dark. I wish I could tell you something that would light up your maze and show you exactly where to go and what to do. I wish I had a word to help you scratch the God-given itch that you haven’t been able to satisfy.
The one thing that we are holding fast to is that we know our steps are ordered and that He will provide a light to guide those steps. We’re just taking one dimly lit step at a time for now.
Thank you, Scott for being transparent and sharing your heart. I look forward to sharing your journey through your blog. Bless you and Kelly!!
WOW, Scottie, this is great thank you for sharing. Really doesn’t matter how long one has walked with God we still go though the dark halls n valleys. We must stay focused on Jesus He will walk us though them.
Love n prayers to you n Kelly